Tension in my upper stomach. I tried to cross my arms on my chest, and then stopped when recalled stress is there and I cannot push it back inside.

Felt a need to cry a little. Crying is you accepting the pain and sadness. Accepting is releasing.

Mindful breathing, each breath asking myself my do I it, everything is bad in any case.

Still painful.

Continue breathing, it’s the only thing I can really control tight now. You better be in shit but in control of something, than just in shit.

Mindfully letting every negative thought to rise and go, the negativity thought rate is so high, it makes you tired.

I feel the stress in my forehead. My chest is a bit softer but still stressed.

Breathing is a bit easier now, chest and head are still stressed but less. Few more breaths and I’ll try take a walk outside.

Will it ever stop these cycles?

I’m better now.