Metric number one: Brain – World gap

July 8, 2026July 8, 2026 / jonathan / Leave a comment

Do you have thoughts or emotions that exist only in your head? that you don’t share with a person or write them down?

I assume you do.

Imagine each person had a score, a metric, that is known to his close circles, maybe even beyond that.

This metric would be – what is the variance, the difference, on average, between your external and internal.

You could add to which direction – negative or positive.

For example – a person that has positive thoughts but does not share them – will have high positive variance.

If a person has a negative variance – you should pay attention how are they doing, because words will not say it.

Applications? many

Spiral of words and symbols representing brain functions inside a glowing human head outline

Introversion and Melancholy: A Personal Reflection

July 7, 2026July 7, 2026 / jonathan / Leave a comment

Susan’s book on introverts gave me words to describe how I feel and see the world.

Years of being told what I’m doing wrong, and with this book I felt seen.

There’s a part explaining how introversion is a strength, or has many strengths. Well, this part never really landed with me, it still feels like a liability. At least I better know how to cope with it.

Susan’s book on melancholies had a different impact on me. Not from a book review point of view, but from a personal view. Being melancholy is a bigger liability than introversion. It’s starting from minus 3 everyday instead of 0 or higher. It means putting a lot of effort just at finding peace of mind. It means many times a person you yourself would not want to be with, because they don’t lift you up, but rather take you down. It says something about your energy level.

That mirror tells me I’m not in peace with this trait, unlike the introversion one. I still wish I was not melancholic. A wish that will stay a wish.

Lone tree on lakeshore reflected in calm water with mist and sunrise

Goodbye note

November 3, 2025 / jonathan / Leave a comment

I’ve drafted a goodbye note from the company I’ve worked at for many years. It’s emotional to leave after such a long time, but it feels almost impossible for me to authentically write a social media post about it. Whenever I read other goodbye notes, they all seem to sound the same, and honestly, half of them probably aren’t genuine.

The second issue is that for someone to truly connect to how I feel, they’d have to read carefully, pay real attention, and even then, if they don’t know me well, I’m not sure they’d relate.

And now, with so many people using AI, it’s even harder to tell what’s real. After several drafts, I ended up choosing something quick and dry, just the facts. Maybe even that’s too much.

Perhaps the only real way to convey how I feel is through actual human-to-human interaction.

A Plesunt Surprise

September 28, 2025 / jonathan / Leave a comment

I used to believe I had a good sense for people’s energy—so much that I could feel it in my body. When it happened, my own energy would shift in response. Over time, though, I sensed too much negativity, and that sensitivity became a burden. Truthfully, it always was—draining me.

After so much negative energy, two things happened:

1. I began avoiding people, even new ones, assuming they would drain me too. And of course, I stayed away from those who had already done so.

2. I tried to shut this sense down, to go numb.

Both are bad outcomes.

Today, I met someone whose eyes, smile, and quiet energy filled me. It made me want to know more, to look deeper into their eyes and take in that energy. It wasn’t explosive, not something that took up all the air around us—just gently positive. So rare.

I wish that kind of positive energy surrounded us more often. I miss it. Today was such a pleasant reminder.

Nirvana – The kingdom of god, the kingdom in me: a note from the wisdom of Thich Nhat Hanh

November 23, 2023July 14, 2024 / jonathan / Leave a comment

Am I in the prison of the past or the prison of the future? Or am I free?

The kingdom is available 24 hrs a day. Am I available to the kingdom?

mindfulness helps to get out of the prison and touch the kingdom.

To be alive – is to have the mindfulness energy, in me. To generate the energy of – mindfulness, concentration and insight.

The flower, the cloud, rain, body are manifestations of the wonderful Nirvana.

Nirvana in the here and the now.

Not just the lotus but also the mud.

Touch the kingdom of god in the everything.

Suffering is mud, happiness is lotus. And we make good use of the mud also.

Breathe in mindfully, bring your mind home to your body, in the here and in the now.

and you become fully present and alive. Just one in-breath.

I always go back to the wind, the trees, the rain. To Thich Nhat Hanh’s voice and words.

Minor change, major experience

July 30, 2023July 14, 2024 / jonathan / Leave a comment

Not a big fan of WFH. Never tried a real remote work from a complete non work related area. I see many benefits to office life. If you are still here 🙂 I’d like to share a an experience.

I found a place, with surprising windy conditions, as much as a summer day, in a hot, too hot place can be. With shades. With a chair and a desk. Outside. And amazingly, almost no one around. Hearing cars for a far road, listening to birds, a train passes not so far from here. We are talking mid city yes? but with an unusual set that causes no one to be here. And those that pass by are focused on their destination I guess.

And what’s super amazing, I sat there, opened my laptop, and just worked. Enjoying the wind, not losing focus to random web scrolling. And without the constant unease of people around me.

And the progress I make, and the set around me made me feel good. And the dry wind brought on a smile. Drinking cold water, feeling it flowing down inside and fueling my body.

Maybe I can make a habit out of it? starting a day few times a month like that? what if this an everyday thing? what if tomorrow I go back to office and forget this feeling? I’ll just be here, now, smile now into the dry wind.