Which childhood memory relaxes you before falling asleep? Good. Keep it with you

What and who is around you when you feel one? when your muscles are soft

What energize you?

What scares you?

What holds you back?

Are you consuming too much media and social media? can you consume less? try it

Do you feel stress or agitation over the weekend? what does it mean? Same question for vacation

What’s the distance between how you parent and how you want to parent?

When did you surprise yourself? others?

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Write it down. And go back to what you were doing. No decisions, just refection. Things will mature when it’s time.

• Mood swings that cover a wide range of positive and negative emotions.
• Energy swings, from moments of high motivation to moments of feeling stuck.
• Fear of the unknown and of how people will react to the change.
• Moments of clarity where you have a clear sense of what is needed.
• Difficulty moving forward without a clear internal framework or external support and accountability.
• Finding subtle, sub-contextual meanings in otherwise meaningless situations.
• Doubt and second-guessing about the decision to make a change.
• Excitement about the possibilities that lie ahead.
• A sense of being on the cusp of something significant.
• Nostalgia for what you are leaving behind, even if it was not fulfilling.
• A need to let go of old habits and beliefs that no longer serve you.
• A sense of being called to a higher purpose or mission.
• Anxiety about the practicalities and logistics of making the change.
• A sense of relief or release once the decision has been made.
• A desire for a fresh start and a clean slate.

It’s cold. Not suffering cold but of feeling fresh cold. There’s some wind, that goes gently over my face. It’s quiet – hearing the neural networks of my brain working, and a bird passing by. I browse through my notes, seeing the themes and patterns.

When alone, you don’t absorb other people’s energy. It give you more control over how you feel. When alone, your surrounding is what feeds you or balance your thoughts.

Cold just enough, alone just enough, quiet more than enough. I have all I need. It feels there’s a smile inside trying to get out into my face.

Nothing disturb you from paying attention to everything around you. And there’s so little happening that you can really pay attention as much as you want, you will not be overwhelmed. your eyes are not heavy but rather open wide.

A voice saying use this, use this energy, rare energy to be creative, to be active. Another voice says enjoy it, just be. It’s rare, just be.