How to manage your energy, learn on your feelings, or just be
Be too busy, but also to have too much time to think
Be too stressful, but also not have a reason to act
Be too tired, but also not to be too much in bed till you can’t sleep
You don’t want to be with many people, but also not to dwell in your inner world
You don’t want to be angry with your kids, but you are
You want to be kind to yourself, but it’s hard
You want to smile
You want to feel the breeze
You want to hear the music
You will
It’s cyclical. The feeling is well known. The energy is down. The anger is higher. The body is heavy or hurts. Something is missing, but it’s impossible to know what. Endless lists that were done in the past floats up again, without any new insight. You don’t even try to filter the reasons. You look at it from the inside and from the outside. Looking from the outside is a skill you developed in the countless times it felt like this in past. The meta look, the external look, was supposed to be a powerful tool, helping you pull yourself up, providing you with a clear fresh perspective. It does not help this time. Your friend is movement, alone time, and patient.
It’s grey. It will stay grey for some time. Don’t fight it, be it. And it will pass.
Our mind is evolving with our experiences and age. We learn how to deal and cope. Some challenges we face still cause stress and fear, but the way we pass through them, and the way we deal with the outcome, no matter what it is, that’s the gift of getting older.
It means, maybe, that the more we actively experience and learn when we are young, then it pays off later when older.
On some areas, our weaknesses or fears, or what we consider as such, only grow with age. That’s exactly the opposite of the first paragraph. Why is that so? were those fears too deep, did we avoid dealing with them when younger?
Some adults keep adding more challenges and stress as they grow, sometimes life does it for them without a choice. I think a good goal would be to channel our life to moderate to no addition of challenges, at least as a wish.
And our body? that’s the part that keeps our feet grounded, You can grow, cope, achieve. At the same time our body demands more, able to less, our skin gets old, our health requires more maintenance. Maybe that’s the world way to show you can’t have it all, and where one area grows the other one goes back. We must accept it, because there’s no other way.
The best way, I think, is not to fight, not try to become younger because we can’t. Some people try, but it useless. Embrace it. Eat better, sleep, workout. Rest. And embrace the amazing mind growth we earn from our life experiences. It’s the mind and energy growing. The matter, is just matter.
How do you know it’s deep? When you meet each other after a long time, it feels as if you saw each other yesterday. It feels like routine, with a little warmth inside. You know the good and the bad. It’s predictable but holds interesting updates.
Why it’s deep? because you’ve been to a lot together. Many times you didn’t choose each other, someone else did it for you, but the result is shared values, memories and experiences. Good times and many bad times. Everyone is an open book. No one tries to hide anything. No one can or wants to hide something.
When meeting a group of people with deep connection, there’s a special energy for that. People around this group can also feel it. The trust is high, the laughs are contagious.
You might feel tired after these meetings, but on a deeper level, it fills your battery. It strengthen the core that support your long term energy, not the daily one.
It’s valuable because there are no shortcuts. It’s deep because it’s deep. If it’s shallow, it will never be deep.
She came from school and sat in the kitchen
She looked at the sky through the window
The blue skies opened her eyes, and white clouds expended her smile
A bird came and sat on the window, closing its eyes, enjoying the sun bath
A tear dropped
She was confused
The calmness and happiness of the moment opened her heart
Her open heart let the sadness come out
She felt tired, but in peace
She looked at the sky through the window
Be in a room with two different sources of music
Walk in too much sun and too much humid heat
Move too quickly from a quiet to a noisy environment
Wait too much avoiding dealing with shit that makes you feel bad
Ask too many existential questions. Or too little
Fast. I know what they say. Just don’t
Be in a room with people that suck all the air out
Be too busy
Be afraid to be alone
Don’t be afraid of double negative
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