I’ve drafted a goodbye note from the company I’ve worked at for many years. It’s emotional to leave after such a long time, but it feels almost impossible for me to authentically write a social media post about it. Whenever I read other goodbye notes, they all seem to sound the same, and honestly, half of them probably aren’t genuine.
The second issue is that for someone to truly connect to how I feel, they’d have to read carefully, pay real attention, and even then, if they don’t know me well, I’m not sure they’d relate.
And now, with so many people using AI, it’s even harder to tell what’s real. After several drafts, I ended up choosing something quick and dry, just the facts. Maybe even that’s too much.
Perhaps the only real way to convey how I feel is through actual human-to-human interaction.
Inner world
How to manage your energy, learn on your feelings, or just be
A Plesunt Surprise
I used to believe I had a good sense for people’s energy—so much that I could feel it in my body. When it happened, my own energy would shift in response. Over time, though, I sensed too much negativity, and that sensitivity became a burden. Truthfully, it always was—draining me.
After so much negative energy, two things happened:
1. I began avoiding people, even new ones, assuming they would drain me too. And of course, I stayed away from those who had already done so.
2. I tried to shut this sense down, to go numb.
Both are bad outcomes.
Today, I met someone whose eyes, smile, and quiet energy filled me. It made me want to know more, to look deeper into their eyes and take in that energy. It wasn’t explosive, not something that took up all the air around us—just gently positive. So rare.
I wish that kind of positive energy surrounded us more often. I miss it. Today was such a pleasant reminder.
Nirvana – The kingdom of god, the kingdom in me: a note from the wisdom of Thich Nhat Hanh
Am I in the prison of the past or the prison of the future? Or am I free?
The kingdom is available 24 hrs a day. Am I available to the kingdom?
mindfulness helps to get out of the prison and touch the kingdom.
To be alive – is to have the mindfulness energy, in me. To generate the energy of – mindfulness, concentration and insight.
The flower, the cloud, rain, body are manifestations of the wonderful Nirvana.
Nirvana in the here and the now.
Not just the lotus but also the mud.
Touch the kingdom of god in the everything.
Suffering is mud, happiness is lotus. And we make good use of the mud also.
Breathe in mindfully, bring your mind home to your body, in the here and in the now.
and you become fully present and alive. Just one in-breath.
I always go back to the wind, the trees, the rain. To Thich Nhat Hanh’s voice and words.
Minor change, major experience
Not a big fan of WFH. Never tried a real remote work from a complete non work related area. I see many benefits to office life. If you are still here 🙂 I’d like to share a an experience.
I found a place, with surprising windy conditions, as much as a summer day, in a hot, too hot place can be. With shades. With a chair and a desk. Outside. And amazingly, almost no one around. Hearing cars for a far road, listening to birds, a train passes not so far from here. We are talking mid city yes? but with an unusual set that causes no one to be here. And those that pass by are focused on their destination I guess.
And what’s super amazing, I sat there, opened my laptop, and just worked. Enjoying the wind, not losing focus to random web scrolling. And without the constant unease of people around me.
And the progress I make, and the set around me made me feel good. And the dry wind brought on a smile. Drinking cold water, feeling it flowing down inside and fueling my body.
Maybe I can make a habit out of it? starting a day few times a month like that? what if this an everyday thing? what if tomorrow I go back to office and forget this feeling? I’ll just be here, now, smile now into the dry wind.
Anger
A reasonable person does not want or like to be angry. There’s energy cost for being angry. Your mind is constantly working and gets tired. And your body and muscles are stiff. You finish the days exhausted. It’s hard to control yourself when angry, it’s difficult to concentrate. It’s hard to accept your limited control on things around you.
It’s easy to be self focused, it’s easy to feel self pity. It’s easy to sit on a chair and move your leg in a fast and pointless way. Your body wants and need to be in motion. But a good chance you cannot move.
This is fuel. Remember, this is fuel. Take it, breath it, rest more but use it.
What is it that you wanted to do and left behind, what is that is important to you but you were lost in your comfort zone.
Now is the time. I mean literally this second. Go and do this one little step.
Or just breath in. In the here and in the now.
Hope
Stressed. Feeling tired. It’s difficult to sit straights. You want to cry, to release it a bit, but you hardly cry. Tired from fighting or from seeing people fight.
You have everything but there is something missing. A hope. There is a little hope but it’s covered by fear. A fear that your kids will not grow up in a better world. A world that everybody is unite. Where information or misinformation is not weaponized, where technology is not used by bad actors, where power is not a weapon. Where we all go together towards a better place.
A kind place. A good place. A place where you belong. And it belongs to you.
Take the time you need. Deal with it in your way. And know – you have only one choice, to find a way to live your truth, and find the best future you can for your kids.
So maybe today is off, and the week is also but you will make it happen. Know this, you will make it happen.
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