Birthday wishes

September 10, 2025 / jonathan / Leave a comment

These days, the bar is very low. You can quickly congratulate someone on their birthday in one of the countless chat groups you belong to, write a short sentence without any real meaning, and you’re done. You’ve “done your part,” but no one really pays close attention. It’s just more digital noise, digital pollution, and wasted time.

I still remember calling someone on a landline for their birthday—full of intention and presence.

Even when someone writes a deep, personal note, you need to be in a particular state of awareness to truly appreciate it.

I don’t share these empty wishes, and I don’t want to receive them either. That probably makes me seem like a weirdo.

Many years ago, I chose a few people with whom I exchange personal wishes. I chose them because something in their energy resonated with me. They are the select few who lift my energy rather than drag me down or waste my time with shallow, meaningless one-sentence messages.

And this has continued for years—beautiful and almost effortless.

Money and me. If a tree falls and nobody hears.

November 15, 2020November 15, 2020 / jonathan / Leave a comment

It’s Ambivalent. I’m Ambivalent.

Let’s start with the easy stuff. Those we use money (which they have or don’t have) to show success, to gain respect, that’s not a smart move. It’s dependent on what other are thinking. And that’s a drug you want to avoid. I never really understood.

But the more complex angle is that I want money. And it’s hard to acknowledge it. Am I like them?

I want it because it comes with supporting my family and securing their future. To the degree money can.

I want it because it brings financial independence. So I don’t need to think short term and compromise my values.

I want it because I want to rest a bit. Loosen up FOMO a bit.

But am I true with myself? completely? no external reasons? If others knew about my money, would it make me feel better?

One day rule. And little things that help

October 5, 2020April 11, 2023 / jonathan / Leave a comment

When sad or angry, it takes around one day to recover. I’m talking about the normal course of living’s sad or angry. During this day, almost nothing can change this feeling. And this fact only makes it harder. It’s a sure thing that I’ll be angry at myself and that things will be on the negative side of things. Probably it will include being more edgy with other people.

The one’s that will suffer the most are the closest.

Myself on top of the list. Then close family members etc.

The nerves are more exposed. Noise is heard louder. A mess is seen faster.

The initial thought is how can I speed up and end this day. Tomorrow it will feel different.

Yesterday was such a day. Today is a bit better.

Nothing helped yesterday. And I don’t think I tried hard enough.

I do want to put an effort here to be positive and constructive. So here goes a try of new things to try:

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Thanks

September 24, 2020July 14, 2024 / jonathan / Leave a comment

Thanks for:

Waking up early, before the sun. Going outside. Feeling the wind. Post summer wind.

Listening to the sea waves. Moving my body.

Dealing with decisions that seem heavy but are not really so.

Drinking water and eating fruits.

The understanding that the best way to deal with the stress is to remove my ego and jump in the stress. With an open mind and hopefully a smile.

Feeling the negative thoughts dissolve slowly.

The few but so important partners I have in this journey.

I appreciate it. And I’m ready for the day.

Fragile, so smile

September 16, 2020September 16, 2020 / jonathan / Leave a comment

It is all fragile.

So much is not in our hands.

Everyone acts as if it’s not. But it is.

It means that our control is limited. Our dependency on the outcome should be little.

Our fear should be contained.

Our planning is not that important. Our doing and intention are.

Smile.

Failure’s first few hours

August 24, 2020August 24, 2020 / jonathan / Leave a comment

Even if the option of failing is part of how you anticipate or plan the next steps, the failure’s moment itself is always a bit surprising. It closes the door on the hope that drives your through the process.

It’s surprising that it is surprising. But it cannot be other wise.

Then, there is a short period of failure adrenaline. It’s the first reaction. It can be a shock but most times it is actually an active one. I’ll update her, I’ll check this, I’ll do that. So the anger or sadness are not too dominant yet.

Don’t be confused though. The nerves are exposed.

Then the sadness arrives. The feeling I failed. Was it me. Is there support around me. Why there is not enough support around me.

Leave it. This feeling is here to stay. Let it be with you. Even if it hurts, actually because it hurts. There is no other option than to be with this feeling. And hurt.

Go to to positive places – music, a friend, a positive figure in your life.

Don’t run.

Tomorrow is a new story. Well not a new story, but nothing changes perspective as time does.