Introverted COVID-19

May 24, 2020July 14, 2024 / jonathan / Leave a comment

A lot is being written about this pandemic, probably too much. Many try to forecast what the future will hold. The “new normal”. Well guess what, I will not give it a try. No one knows what will change, what will stay the same. Too many try to.

But but but, and forgive me for sounding a bit dramatic, this period took the world a few steps closer to introverts. And now introverts should decide what to do with it.

I have written in the past about how introverts should try and change their model and not run by an extroverted model. I have limited but some success in that. Slowly improving. Too slow. And in the last two months we all should have gotten an increased motivation boost to explore it.

Early in the lockdown the stress was high, everything was shaking, and introverts in particular. Their routine was broken so they or we could not benefit from this new trial and error phase. Introverts like their routine 🙂

And then the magic started – the whole world started to speak introverted. Working from home, keep social distance and respect the others being. Maybe we don’t need to brainstrom everything and follow the charismatic leader that does not listen.

Moreover – we can enjoy the little things, have fun by doing nothing or very little. Eat simple. Be sad simple. Leave simple.

What a waist it would be to just bounce back and not take this experience and change.

One thing this time did not and could provide introverts. Sometimes we need to take risks. And decide.

I was Active, Goal Driven, Awake. For a while

April 25, 2020 / jonathan / Leave a comment

I felt tired from digging inside. Endlessly dealing with my vulnerabilities. It felt good for a while but then I thought it is holding me back. I decided back then to focus on a healthy routine. I was surprised by my ability to be energetic and focus on a positive can-do attitude. It was based on providing to self the key ingredients and even some extras:

Work out
Sleep
A lot of vegetables and fruits
Being hydrated
A job that felt as challenging but doable, where I can bring exceptional value
A realistic approach to the parenting that is best for me

It seems it was someone else now. While fighting to maintain the first 4. The last 2 were shaken with the COVID19 new reality.

At first I rationalized to myself that things are ok [which they are!] and also with time, got used to this new routine. Also stopped being angry at myself for feeling sorry for myself. Things did get better. But I lost almost all energy. And became angry and passive. Back to the circle I was able to avoid.

So angry at myself and with others. and then with myself for being angry at them.

Collapsing inside myself in many ways.

I have started the road back to that place. Step by step. Taking it day by day, trying to take the moments to recharge during the days. Returning back to the path towards the bigger goal.

5 Moments

July 29, 2019July 29, 2019 / jonathan / Leave a comment

Some are positive. Some are less. Some are frequent. Some are not. All require your attention, during and after.

Going to a quiet place, not a familiar place. Sometimes it increases your loneliness. Other times it allows you to breathe easily and to watch the colors of the skies and trees.

Reading someone’s blog post, telling a personal story, filled with emotions and a candid view. Relating to it in a deep level.

Talking with someone, both are engaged in the talk. Allowing each other to voice their thoughts. Each thought is a building block in a positive imaginary beautiful building.

Your kid is sensing that your feelings were touched. He comes to you, asks to sit with you, saying he loves you. You hug him strongly, appreciating this gesture, without words, filled with positive energy.

Being tired. Just tired, without energy.

In the image : That’s me being productive. And hyped about work!

November 4, 2018July 25, 2019 / jonathan / Leave a comment

I work. It’s a company I established named “No label but just keep it quiet and go away”.

I come in very early so I can use public transportation and reach my desk and chair without saying good morning to anyone. From time to time I do greet someone with a smile. I really don’t want to ask someone I don’t care about how’s it going and then be replied with another question back! people are so weird.

Early public transportation is the perfect balance between not wanting to drive and not wanting to interact. Everyone today is using ear-sets and stare at their phone. So basically I am even more extrovert than them because I stare at them and not at an object. Continue reading →

Quiet clarity

June 17, 2018July 25, 2019 / jonathan / Leave a comment

Behind words there are so many feelings.

When I write that I cherish quietness it sounds like so many similar sentences out there. Most are probably sincere, some aren’t. Even those that are sincere are many times commercialized. That’s OK but it will never be as deep and true.

So from deep down inside: When it’s quiet I feel I can stand tall.

It is easier to breathe. I am less concern about the unknowns and fears. It’s like an internal smile.

I like when it’s quiet after I worked out. It is one of my definitions of feeling alive. It’s clarity.

Clarity is missing when you are under stress and concerns.

I read Quiet and I understood

March 19, 2018July 31, 2019 / jonathan / Leave a comment

A kid crying in a noisy family event. Not leaving his mom’s leg. Listen to him. He is trying to say something.

Closing room’s door, listening to air condition’s white noise, is not weird.

Not feeling an equal partner in high school’s cool group, but seeking this one close friend, is not anti social.

Wanting and not wanting to be part of this cool group, is an introvert not knowing he is one.

Feeling physically uncomfortable and sweaty while waiting in lines, is related to your nervous system.

Feeling not in and not out during every scouts activity. Feeling that not attending scouts activity is a bit giving up. Well it is not.

Friday night, empty house, reading and staring in the rain, is the biggest fun ever. This one I actually always knew 🙂

Thanks Susan 🙂 Let’s raise our kids with these amazing findings in our head. Each time we feel an itch why they are a bit different. Well they are not.