Even if the option of failing is part of how you anticipate or plan the next steps, the failure’s moment itself is always a bit surprising. It closes the door on the hope that drives your through the process.

It’s surprising that it is surprising. But it cannot be other wise.

Then, there is a short period of failure adrenaline. It’s the first reaction. It can be a shock but most times it is actually an active one. I’ll update her, I’ll check this, I’ll do that. So the anger or sadness are not too dominant yet.

Don’t be confused though. The nerves are exposed.

Then the sadness arrives. The feeling I failed. Was it me. Is there support around me. Why there is not enough support around me.

Leave it. This feeling is here to stay. Let it be with you. Even if it hurts, actually because it hurts. There is no other option than to be with this feeling. And hurt.

Go to to positive places – music, a friend, a positive figure in your life.

Don’t run.

Tomorrow is a new story. Well not a new story, but nothing changes perspective as time does.